A Day Full Of Heartache

What a day my heart is full of heartache and my head and stomach are so sick . I am simply exhausted from way too much worrying. I know that I am sensitive but I guess I must be over the top . On Friday night my little dog Lilly got in a minor dog fight and this resulted in a bite to the neck. David and I left to the Temple and Lilly seemed to be doing fine. Yes, she had a small puncture wound but this has happened before with the same dog and she was fine then. I felt bad for her poor neck but I knew that it would heal and that there wasn't much to worry about. That night when we returned I found Lilly acting awfully strange and she had secluded herself from all the world. There she lay all night in a laundry basket full of dirty clothes, Lilly was not acting like herself. I got out of bed and lifted her up she was shivering and extremely cold. This was not normal she never acted this way it was as if her body was limp. I waited it out till morning this is when I found that her neck was making a slight gurgling sound when I massaged it and was still very tender to the touch. Poor girl wasn't looking much better at this point but nobody but me seemed very concerned so I continued to hope and pray that this too would soon pass and all would be well. I was wrong and to my dismay I woke up in the morning and Lilly's neck was swollen with a pocket of fluid about the size of a golf ball and was spreading through her leg and under her neck. Tonight it only got worse the golf ball now was the size of a baseball and very hard. Nobody in this house takes this quite as serious as me , I feel like I am some sort of paranoid weirdo to say the least . The most sympathy that Lilly gets from anyone other than myself is a hard long laugh . When I cry and worry about her it seems to trigger more laughing , all I asked my husband for was a simple priesthood blessing . Lilly has a spirit just as everybody else does, the least she deserves is a little bit of dignity and respect. All the while during the mocking and laughter I couldn't help but tell of the story of the pioneers coming across the plains and the priesthood blessings they gave there oxen when they would fall ill. It may sound silly to many but to me Lilly is part of our family just as much as any of us and she will be treated that way. Lilly received her blessing and I know that the pocket filled with fluid in her neck will soon dissipate allowing her to feel much better. I Love this little girl and it breaks my heart to see her feeling so miserable.