Hooray For 2011

I am so thankful for the New Year but also I will forever be grateful for getting through this past year.

January 2010 to May 2010 were the hardest most difficult times I have ever had to endure. June 2010-December 2010 were the opposite they were months of celebration , gratitude and joy. The emotional roller coaster 2010 brought was terrifying and it changed me entirely. I think most of the changes are good ones but others are much lower on the list. The NICU experience was not a positive one and I know that subconsciously I am still suffering from the pain. I can feel it in the things I say and do as a Mother. It is a very tender subject and I don't understand it in it's entirety but eventually I will break it down and sort it out.

I am just so happy to be starting a new year with my two beautiful boys and a wonderful Husband. I am happy to begin 2011 with a clean bill of health for all four of us and a whole new perspective on life. Life is so fragile , I remember day after day leaving the NICU and seeing just how much effort taking one breath is for these tiny babies. It gave me a whole new perspective on how fragile life really is . Heavenly Father created us and placed us on this earth with high hopes for our success . I watched this for three in a half months as Heavenly Father blessed Emerson day after day as he struggled to survive. Emerson would try his best to be strong and meet the milestones that we all prayed for and when his progress would slow Heavenly Father was there carrying him the rest of the way. I know and will never forget that in the strength of the Lord we can overcome anything.

This New Year we celebrated with David's parents . We played them canasta and beat them horribly I might add. We lit off lots of fireworks and Stratton loved the holding the sparklers. He would swing the sparkler all around and I have to admit it made me a little nervous but I just bit my tongue. Stratton is already overly cautious and he definitely does not need my paranoia to get involved.

Emerson was just doing his best to stay warm